In about couple days ago, I've lost my glasses as well as my paper of remedial of Physics (which, there were 48 questions). It was Saturday when I realised that I have no idea where there are. I kept looking at my home but there was nothing. My stupidity told me later not to telling my parents about it. The day after, I was randomly getting anxious. I've decided the remedial thingy had to be re-written by myself. So I was lembur, and a cup of coffee was accompanied me.

Oh! Right before that, I be procrastinator. I certainly procrastinate to did it. There, my thoughts were wandering, they were so anxious, messed up, and kind of.. devastated. It was Sunday, a day before school started and I have no idea where is my glasses. And that paper either. I was crying like a child wants a balloon.

     Crying, eh? 

     Right.

Well, it was not just that simple. I lost my responsibility, and indirectly the part of myself mostly dislike on its own.





[even I had found it] [it actually was left behind] [I'm still upset]

1. Daikichi Kawachi, lo bokap idaman, nggak boong.
2. Kalo gue udah gede, gue harus punya chemistry sama anak gue.
3. Pengen punya suami & anak kayak gitu deh, hidup gue pasti bakal nyaman, tentram, damai.
4. Oooh, gini toh kerja kerasnya para nyokap, bokap & seluruh orang tua. Mereka emang inspiring banget.
5.
.
.
.
5. ...KENICHI MATSUYAMA, KENAPA IN REAL LIFE LO UDAH NIKAH. KENAPA, KENAPAAAAAAAA « gomen ne, that was only personal thoughts (........)

Eventually, I got (actually not really) a week of days off after struggling for a week of mid-term examination. This is my experience when I'm in examination; I sat with a senior from Social Classes, he seemed kind but I didn't talk to him during the exam except for saying “excuse me“. There I decided to asked him the answers but I was hesitate, because he was very busy of his works—for looking the answers, too. These times were so different with term one, when I sat with a senior from Science Class. He's kind of funny and absurd but quite smart and we got a lot of talking and helped each other—(and also I ever had reproved by the teacher for a couple of times) (I'm still a good student, btw)

Let I go to the some points, at the first and second day were like reading newspaper and fairy tale, because it had scheduled for Indonesian and English. My qualmishness of Physics and friends have overloaded. I neither have interest with History nor Sociology. Civics? I literally don't ever have political views. Yet at least I was very lucky I'd stand over Stoichiometric, Trigonometry, and National Gross and also Plantae thingy and yes I'm still breathing and my brain still works and I could stand above my legs and—right, stop.

But, really, thank God there will no need to face them all the while, I mean, a week of examination is over and the thing to do is waiting for the final score which makes me feeling so worried + hangover. Unfortunately, I am already effing hangover with those stuffs.

This weekend I'll start with do a car free day on Sunday with my friends of mine and will be watching movies (because there's many good movies) (if I have money, definitely) and I'm so fascinating with it.

Or perhaps I'm just laying on my bed, do nothing for days. And I'm still excited with it.