You know how hard is it to thinking about future? To imagining the future? To picture it? To fantasize it?

Because there is only one thing that clear about future; we are all going to die. We do that someday in undefined time and like Gus in The Fault in Our Stars, he feared oblivion. I, actually, do too.

But no I'm not going to talk about dying.

Nah, this time, because I'm a third grade I was really confused to think where is my next destination.

Where is my fate?
Where is my guts actually feel comfort?

Because, no, I am not gonna just graduate, being a college student, work, having a family, and die. I want something more, a plot twist. Whether it's good or bad, I'll do it anyway. I try not to seeking attention but I would like to seeking some experiences. I want to meet people and listen to their stories throughout their life. I want to make my view more wider and reduce the noise.

But,
I still dunno how to be the center of attention.
I can't speak in front of many people.

How pity